so im up agean at 3 in the morning becouse I cant sleep.
Out of bordem I desided I was going to search the web and see how many songs and/or poems I could find with 3am mentend in them. I was suprised to see quit a fue, even a poem magasen called 3am. any who... I came about a poem that intreaged me. Its sad that the auther has past on, I just felt the need to post it here for a short time to see what others thought about it.

Waking at 3 a.m.

Even in the cave of the night when you
wake and are free and lonely,
neglected by others, discarded, loved only
by what doesn't matter--even in that
big room no one can see,
you push with your eyes till forever
comes in its twisted figure eight
and lies down in your head.

You think water in the river;
you think slower than the tide in
the grain of the wood; you become
a secret storehouse that saves the country,
so open and foolish and empty.

You look over all that the darkness
ripples across. More than has ever
been found comforts you. You open your
eyes in a vault that unlocks as fast
and as far as your thought can run.
A great snug wall goes around everything,
has always been there, will always
remain. It is a good world to be
lost in. It comforts you. It is
all right. And you sleep.

William Stafford

If you didn't pay attention, this is not mine thouse the name on the bottem.
you can find this and other grate poems at [link]

P.S. Happy birthday to me

I came, I saw, I drow.
now what..... draw some more!

So.... this summer has ben pretty uninventfull. It had its ups and downs. My family reunane/late baby shower for baby noah was intresting. Alot of the family couldn't make it this year do to work or other comitment but for who showed up we had a nice time. It was a good thing that the rain held up becouse the way the clouds looked that day we all feared for the wost with us being out in the open and all.
Lets see.... monday of last week my dad had taken him self to the hospital becouse the night befor his left arm witch has ben realy bothering him for quit awile was realy bad and he was having some chest pains from what he thought was from a saver case of heart burn, anyway what was thought to be an in and out turned out to be a 3 day stay in the haspital. It turned out that he had plack bild up in an artery or two witch was cousen the pain in his arm, earlier beleaved to be a over exstended musil a fue mounths back. Well he had the poseger done to clear his arterys and had three stunts (or what ever there called) put into his heart and was releast on thursday. Hes ben off of work sence then, taking full advantege of his vacation time, hes on some meads for a bit and is takeing the steps to stop smoking, im so proud of him. In all hes doing alot beter now.
Other then that, I started bowling agean today. Same nice team I was on last year.
When I got home after finishing I found that a freand of my parents was over and he was showing my mom how to sighn up for face book. I do have an accout but I don't use it enough to be an exspert at it but despite that my mom is looking tords me for any qestens she might have about keeping her page up to date. so Iv spent the rest of the night till just a moment ago trying to get used to the workings of the page by posting photos, video, playing games, and going through the duzense of freand requests that have aqumilated from the time I was on there last. Im shere I'll get the swing of it soon enough and I'll be ready to be my moms face book toter.

On thursday as I was watching my 2 nieces, I got a call anouncing that my first nephew was born ^-^ . So on friday we went to the hospital to pay the new mother and father (my little brother) and there son a visit. He is indeed a chubi one *9lb5oz* but so cute XD we where all saying how he reminded us of Theador from the chipmunks lol.
My younger brother was telling me about the night befor when my oldest brother with his wife and the two girls came. I wish I could have seen it. My brother told me that when my oldest niece *3yr old* was holding the baby (with help of course), she was asked if she liked her new cousin, she replide "I don't like cousins but I love the baby" XD. She went on saying how he as so cute and perfict like her parints and told her what to say lol.
I never know my little brother to be a camcorter nut. Apparntly he did a video jernal of the day befor the burth like "So... its 3am and your still not here." lol he was filming everything! I don't blam him though. It his first kid (secent acctraly but that was sadly a miscarige) of couse your going to make a big deal about it. And im shere that my dad is extra exsited, not that hes leting on or anything, but to now have a grandson to play sports with. Hec when his first granddouter was born he went and bout a babys basball outfit with dall thinking that maybe she would grow up to be a sports buff lol.
Now im looking forword to the futcher. In a couple of mounths if all gos well, my older brothers (2nd born) and his wife will be welcomeing twins and the holidays will become a thing of caose lol so looking forword to that XD

She has come out of hideing!
The funny thing is I was reading a coment about the sitch and as soon as I finished the first parigraph, she came running out from under neath my bed .
I still don't know where the heck she was hideing but now after hours of coferting words I got her to eat something. yay!
Now today shes taking full advantege of her time to voice her complants about what started it all by waking me up at 4am and not leting me go back to sleep.... I suppose I deserve it in her mind :/